The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy it can contain.

Yesterday was an odd day. During the last half hour of 'Spirited Away', I became increasingly aware of my heart beating. I don't think it was beating fast but it just seemed to be pounding more than usual. I put it down to adrenalin caused by my reaction to the film. But as time went by, it still felt . . . wrong, like as if I was about to have a heart attack, not that I've ever had one, naturally. I thought that maybe I should lie down. I just needed to lie down. But I really wanted to see the rest of 'Spirited Away'. Ten minutes to go, I paused the film, probably to the bemusement of Tania and Rob and said, "I think I'm going to have to lie down. I feel knackered," but, as someone pointed out, there was only ten minutes to go. I think I went upstairs to my bedroom nonetheless, but my room stank of chemicals present in washing machine tablet things, you know? Those Persil tablet things? See, I had recently hung up a load of washing there. So, back downstairs, to see the last ten minutes. The film finished but then things got very confusing. Hallucinations, paranoia, delusions and still my heart was pounding in my chest, I was sweating all over and felt a bit nauseous. I babbled incoherently at Tania and Rob for a while but realised I had to go to bed and my room wasn't a pleasant option. Tania kindly allowed me to 'sleep it off' in her bed, whilst they set out to make waffles using Tarn's new waffle iron. Somehow I managed to work out to ring M**** to ask her if she could come around to look after me as I clearly wasn't quite right. The physical symptoms were soon to largely diminish, leaving just my unhinged mental state. It wasn't for another hour or two before my head realligned itself and I felt oddly empowered (oh, so I'm okay then?) and resolute. These feelings have remained. I'm not sure what happened on Sunday but I seem to have stumbled upon a well of resolve that I never knew I possessed. I write this in case others have experienced the same. Is this usually what happens?